Sunday in church my pastor talked about the Israelites and how Moses sent 12 spies into the land of Canaan. This was the land that God had promised them! This was the land of milk and honey! The spies went into the land and saw that it truly was the land of milk and honey. But there, they also saw that the people there were very strong! The spies said "we are not able to go up against the people, for they are stronger then we are". They also said that the people there are of great stature. There we saw giants!
The fear and unbelief that the Israelites had, prevented them from entering the land of Canaan for another 40 years. When my pastor was teaching on this I kept thinking, "what if ", "what if they trusted God and at that time had the trust and belief that God was going to take care of them. After all He promised them the land, he promised them the milk and honey, he promised them that he would take care of them. He had proved himself over and over again since they left Egypt. Had they had that faith at that time, they probably would not have had to wait another 40 years. There are always consequences to our disobedience.
I realize that we can sit and say "what if 's" all day about the decisions and choices that we have made, but do we really realize how much we miss out on what God has for us because of our fears, and our disbelief's. I have had this on my mind since Sunday morning and I wonder what I have missed out on because of my fears, disbelief and disobedience. As my pastor said Sunday, disbelief is disobedience. The Bible clearly states for us to trust Him with everything.
Unfortunately, I cant say that I obey and have the faith that I need all the time, although I try my hardest to put everything in God's hands and trust Him. There was one time in particular I did. I said yes to God, even when it did not make since to me at all. This was a was huge step of faith for me. And when we do this it often affects our family in some way. This decision made a huge impact on my family. I look at that choice I made at that time, and see how God took care of us, how he prepared and placed me where HE WANTED ME. At the time I wasn't sure where I was going to end up, and what His plans for me where, but I did trust Him and I am now in a ministry that I love and He has put a passion in me for this ministry. I often think " what if " I had not trusted him and had disobeyed Him. I would probably not be able to be a part of a ministry that helps women understand that there are other choices other than abortion. I may not have been able to talk with these women and see them later with a newborn baby. I may not have been able to lead someone to Christ and see them make better life choices.
God has a plan for each of us. I don't want to say "what if ". I might miss out on what He wants for my life, and He isn't finished. He is still working and has an awesome plan!! When we disobey it effects those around us too because we are not where God wants us to be. There were times that it was not easy, and very hard, and there are still times that are hard and stressful, but I know that God has it!! God has "it" for each of you that are reading this. Whatever "it" is.
